Soooo, I have been in Montevideo for about 3 days now..... It all seems kinda, fuck, I don't know.... When I leave next Friday I know that my heart will hurt again... See, Evan is the greatest thing that ever happened to me.. And to live with out him is soooo, god damn hard.... So, today, Evan and I went down to Marshall and then over to Slayton.. We played "kickball" and then I got his motorcycle (bike) ready for him to ride... We just had a great time together, man, I am going to miss him... As for the rest of the family; Amanda is doing well after the operation, and dealing with Kennedy.. Kennedy is happy, and getting use to her brothers screams......
Amanda and I had a talk tonight about us... And when we got married it seems to me that we did it out of need... I mean, I don't think love was the center of this whole marriage.. At times I think we both had love for each other, but a lot of times it was a "need" that we had.... We needed, or thought we couldn't be without each other... As the weeks turn to months it starts making me wonder what the purpose of me is..... Is there really a great Divine purpose out there for me, or is my mere existence it? Oh, god, I hope not.... More on this later.......
NOW ON TO MY RANT OF THE DAY, OR WELL WEEK.........
Fuck me standing in place holding a icy.......... I really didn't want to do another bit on wal-mart but,fuck me, they make it too easy.... So, the Wal-Mart in Montevideo MN has to be the shittiest wal-fuck ever... Every time I walk in there I feel like I walked into the deep south, where incest is ok and every ones uncle is their dad or brother... This Wal-suck is the same... I go in there and all I see is NASCAR T-shirts and babies hangin off of tits... I don't mind breast feeding in public at all...... That is a womans right as a mom, but when the babies are hanging from a 70 year olds long saggin fruit roll up tit, that's the end all for me... I get looked at like people are wondering who I am related to, and if I am someones grandbro (combo of grandfather and brother) going to buy the latest installment of the Blue Collar Comedey Tour... Not cause its funny, but, to masterbate to... The workers all look and act like making it past their 6Th grade was fucking sweet.. And all the greeters are "petty fucking files" looking to bust a nut in the 0-9 month section... All these hillbilly bastards drive big trucks with big pipes and can't wait till farmin is done so they can go out and have fun... Sooooo, to all you RE-AH-TARDS........ Eat a cock, and not your dads or brothers you fucking pervs.... This was just MY2CENTS...
3 comments:
Love the post about Walmart! Ive been to the Monte one too and you described it to a T! LOL!! I can't believe there was an 70 yr old lady with her tits hangin out feeding a baby YUCK!! I'm surprised the baby didn't reject it and say fuck this saggy tit! LOL!! On a good note its good to hear that you are getting things figured out for yourself!!! I think you should want your son to be more like you, your not a bad person. Your very smart, caring and honest person. Everyone has made mistakes in their life but you learn from them and when you become a father you remember the lessons you learned and you teach them to your kids. If you never make mistakes then there isnt much to teach your kids now is there! Your a great dad don't be so hard on yourself sometimes!!
I LOL'd at this. That is exactly how Monte is-- people stare because they really ARE trying to figure out who you're related to. I think you're a great dad to both of your kids and I know Evan thrives on all the positive attention he's been getting from you. I can't tell you how much I wish with all my heart we could fix us so we can be a family again.
Crusier- Hey thanks for the post... I don't think that woman was really 70, but she looked like it... Thats what crack does to a person tho...
AJ- Yeah Monte people are kinda fucked in the head. I too enjoy the time with Evan and thrive on the attention that I get from him... I know how you feel and how I feel... I too wish i knew a fix to the issues we have....
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