So, it is time to catch up. Work is blahh blahh, same crap different day. My wife is almost three months preggy, and my heart beat, Evan is becoming more and more amazing.. NE who... I sit here and listen to various songs on my mp3 player, and wow.. Music is Life... Songs remind us of what was, what is, and what it is going to be.. The soul is fed from it... The heart is made either soft or hard.. Moods are made.. Thoughts develop.. When I listen to music my mind goes into over drive.. I think of every thing, from relationships, mistakes, choices, and the out come.. Some songs drive the imagination also.. I can feel my body absorb this music.. My music is so random that I deal with so many feelings it could make you nuts.. (Right at this point, Dave Matthews Band-Crash..) I slowly close my eyes and this is what i see- A girl and boy sit on a dock. The emotions intense, they both know that they want each other but, there is a force between them, they can't touch, they try hard but, they can't and then they realize that there is no "them" they both want each other but neither do or say anything to come together, and the song ends with those two in there own rooms knowing that the passion is there and neither of them say a thing.. So, that's what I see.. I see stories.. I hear the words and and stories are made out of those.. People should try and do this. Put on some music, sit down or lay. Close your eyes, and see these words.. See, what your mind whats you to see. Your heart talks to you through these words. What do you see? Who do you see? How do you feel? Is there something that comes to mind.. I know this not what I write about but I am not the man some may think.. Passion, runs deep, music brings that out.. That is why I started to play the guitar, (even though I haven't played in a while) so I could show my soul. My fears, my love, my passion. Look if you had one shot or one opportunity, to seize every thing you ever wanted one moment would you capture it or just let it slip...One of my favorite lyrics of a song.. So, true...... I love having a imagination. I can go to a different world, don't get me wrong I love what I have now, but, you can go anywhere.. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, when I listen to that song and close my eyes, I am in New York, in the winter time, in some park, that is what is so great about music... Right now I am listening to Five For Fighting- 100 years, I see my life fly by. I see the choices I made.. I see the hurt and pain that I dealt with. I see my wife, son, and child to be.. I see what kind of father I have been, and will be. I see the life my kids will have.. I feel sick when I know that I might not be able provide for them cause I have no education.. I FEEL EXCITEMENT.... Knowing that I can change all of what is to be. I'm 15 for a moment, caught in between 10 and 20 and I am just dreaming counting the ways to where you are. I am 22 for the moment and she feels better then ever and we're on fire making our way back from mars. 15 there is still time for you, time to buy and time to loose, 15 there is never a wish better than this, when you only 100 years to live. I am 33 for a moment, I am still the man, but you see I am a they, a kid on the way, my family on my mind... The last part of this song goes like this... I'm 99 for a moment, Dying for just another moment, And I'm just dreaming Counting the ways to where you are. This song is amazing.. Sorry i went on but this song can grip your soul and tear it in half... But lets finish this little entry with the main thing music does... Makes you think about people. Yeah we all feel this.. Every last one of us.. Weather it is attraction, anger, heart break, sadness, laughter, our just plain, "What is he or she doing right now at this very moment?" This is just a part of life, and maybe it would make that persons day to know you were thinking about them.. It doesn't have to be sexually, or anything like that.. It is just nice for people, all people, to know that people out there care about them and were thinking.. Well, everyone that is it for my soap box. Please remember, this is just MY2CENTS.... Take care, and I hope I showed a new side of me that some never saw...
3 comments:
wow, nicely written. you have a way with words that makes me see what you see, and i never looked at 'crash' quite that way before.
I'm as far alone as your wife. That's cool. Congrats! Do you both want to find out if it's a boy or a girl?
Yeah, I want a girl. Then you don't have the whole, boy vs boy thing.. Keeps the fighting down also...
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